Become the abnormal man's mistress' _ pre-marital cohabitation in ten years

Become the abnormal man's mistress' _ pre-marital cohabitation in ten years

The person who I loved has got married, but the bride is not me.
The film, vulgar lines on TV, I it expects to be can in prove by oneself one day. I am a woman behind him. There is no status day in ten years
Son, I believe that marriage of him expire that day, happy time not beginning such as we. Just I am unexpected, he will give me such a result finally.
I turn over the head to clearly see, that simple and beautiful girl many years ago, how to finish overnight
A girl is to the woman's transition. Those are bitter, those tears, happiness and struggle of those bits, are paved with the time in ten years. Everything is really like a dream.
Man who is shedding tears
In that autumn of 19 years old, I graduating from the high school to an enterprise to go to worked. This is a small factory of a family, add a boss only eight people. Boss Zhai win appearance to be ordinary, temper too very irritable, have countryman tangible. From that day to go from I to the factory, he was very kind to me.
Zhai defeats the couple's emotion very badly, two people are angry in all one's life, the wife throws the child to him. One day, I go to look for Zhai Sheng to sign materials. Pushed away and opened the door, saw Zhai Sheng arranging the pigtail for the little daughter unexpectedly. On his face is the smile that I have never see been, so soft and moving. I think one love man of child like this, less than where go.
In the summer, I and Zhai win, go on business, finish thing of Company have a meal evening. Perhaps people have reached the strange place, the ones that always put down on ordinary days are courteous and restrained. Zhai Sheng drank much wine that day, said a lot of one's own things too. He says, he and wife " The war " Having already hit for several years, she is the child's blood mother, I can't imagine children to live under the berating of the stepmother. He says, I have been bearing for the child, I can really feel a pain!
I am looking at sottish Zhai Sheng, do not know what should be said. While supporting him to get back to the room, does not know whether it is the function of alcohol or not, he embraced me suddenly, crazy to kiss me the samely. I do one's utmost, struggle, that time such as end, watch to this man who is shedding tears in one's arms, I was getting soft suddenly.
From body to soul
I do not know how men are. Perhaps their health and soul are separated, they can make love with this woman easily, then love another woman in the heart. But I know, for woman, frequently, their health and soul are connected together. Traditional I, love this man who seizes my virginity in this way at heart.
I do not have vacation, there is not a friend. I work overtime until ten o'clock perfectly willing every day, set all energy free to he and his enterprises. I know he takes notice of me very much, he does not allow me to have dealings with original friend, I do not just come and go, including women friend. I do not enter the dance hall if he does not allow my dancing, does not allow me to drink, I never to touch a drop of wine. Even I make sales manager later on, take, have dealings with customer often, I have never dipped in the wine again too.
But Zhai Sheng is a person with very small, short-tempered heart. The one evening of 1699 years, I was having a bath in the house, he burst open the door and entered suddenly, said furiously the company was in a hurry, why not answer the call? I just explained one sentence was not heard. He under violent rage went to the bathroom unexpectedly, watered me to the foot from the beginning with a basin of water, water piece bed of me with water even all over. I am distracted there, drip all over. He embrace I say Yan, I take notice of you very much, upset me suddenly OK? The company has just started, I know only you kiss with me most, unite as one with me, you can't put down me, is that right? I am looking at him, did not know unexpectedly for the moment what should be said.
Having celebrated the New Year, Zhai Sheng should come back home to celebrate the New Year, I am a bit angry. I say how long, you go home on festivals or holidays of all. I know you to ache people of child, but do you know my agony and loneliness? I do not dare, go home, go home parents ask get up marriage of me, I am unable to explain at all. I embrace arm that win Zhai, do I say you knew last year? I stay in the room alone, the ones that are listening to others' home outside are lively, cry for a whole night. Do not go back this year, accompany me, OK? Zhai Sheng says that does not make a noise, please go home too. I do not know where to come to break strength, hold Zhai to win tightly, I say I do not let you go today!
Zhai Sheng has earned for several times, a bit urgent, see me not loosing one's grip, a kick is stamped on my arms, force the way out. I sit on the ground dully, see that closed on the good door, in the wind, have opened and shut again.
I am holding the arms of pain, have struggled downstairs. Have reached the nearest hospital, have checked and known fracture. Great to celebrate the New Year so careless why? The doctor asks, I remain silent, the tears that have never fallen down surged and appeared suddenly while wrapping up.
When meet again, Zhai Sheng holds my arms to cry, does he say you know? The child can not hit, the wife can not hit, sisters can not hit. Only in front of you I am a really dignified man, could let my irritable heart calm down. He kneels on the ground, holds me to say, Yan, I swear, I will not shoulder you in lifetime tightly.
Empty pair of water of tenderness of ten years
In summer of 2005, Zhai Sheng divorced. That evening, he said to me, Yan, I must want to give you a result. If we get married, you must come back home to look after the family. But now, company, also during the course of rising, I need the intersection of you and such capable capable person, and then help me for two years, OK?
I watch Sheng Zhai, this piece I it follows to be nearly man of 10 years. He just can touch vividly in front of me. I think that though there is not that paper, he is my man, help him to help myself?
Zhai Sheng's business is better and better. Passed by in two years, the company carried on shareholding system transformation, the commercial network sets up in the whole country too. I think, we can get married.
But his family disagree, especially his eldest brother. There is next business personnel on because the abominable influence of a bunch of goods, as sales manager I discharge him. I can not expect, this business personnel was his eldest brother's relative unexpectedly. His eldest brother finds Zhai Sheng, demands to discharge me. Unless say no Zhai Sheng, last so much to company Yans,how could because discharge you by she with a word? The eldest brother uses and butts Zhai Sheng's desk, make a scene: You, for her, has not even brothers' kindred been wanted?
First Zhai Sheng's eldest brother, later on even his parents, children begin to object to our marriage wedding. Public clamor can confound right and wrong, what's more unarmed woman of one such as me? I know Zhai Sheng's worries, does not want to give him a pressure and force again either, I think he should know how to do.
In autumn of 2006, Zhai Sheng went abroad to participate in the fair, while leaving, he said suddenly, others have introduced a woman, family members are all very satisfied.
I do not know unit how oneself go back by car. I am looking at us in the arduous company that fought, very ignorant in the heart. I send messages to him, I say: I find out about your agony. Hearts are all that meat is long, if you let me leave, I want to ask you to say out personally. His message is just sent over two days later, he says, I am very in pain too. I am unable to give up child and brothers, and you can't delay any more either. Thank you give love of me several decades, make the intersection of horse and I, willing too as ox next lifetime. But this lifetime, I can't give you a marriage. Yan, I am sorry.
I throw the mobile phone on the ground. He knows obviously I love him, what I want is to reach old age with him. The love in ten years, frustration joys and sorrows of the bit, does he think he could spend money and buy back?
The interlude play is over
In the evening in October of 2006, Zhai Sheng came to look for me. He was drunk that day, said oneself has been forced to marry that woman. I agree one is forced! Are you still a three -year-old child? If you yourself are unwilling, it is of no use that others will force. He getting red eyes say family members force I, the woman force I, I what can do you say do? I can regret now, I did not find, they were all for my money until now, only you are not, whom I can not put down most is still you.
I lie under his body, the tears fall down silently. Yes, this man, the only man in this my life, no matter how he injures me, only his a word, I will still shoot his arms. How I disdain me such aly.
I have found her, that woman letting Zhai Sheng marry her during one month. I have talked about the love in ten years of Zhai Sheng and me, have talked about the child in Zhai Sheng's regret and my stomach. I say I knew that marriage in the past of yours, if you wanted the money, Zhai Sheng can assign half the you. We are all women, do I say, see on child's surface in my stomach, can you help me? She says coldly, I leave alone. If you destroy my marriage, I will inform you!
I am looking at her figure, have to acknowledge she is beautiful and having the means. It is satisfactory that she has finished in one month I can not get in ten years. I scold oneself, the silly woman, do you think others are as kindhearted as you?
Child grow up day by day in stomach of me, I know oneself it's time for what course should follow. I know if I leave, Zhai Sheng will give me high compensation. But I want, then it let me feel, sell for myself, sell for ten truest to love year such as I.
Remember " it is colder than to long for to love " in a film ever seen, " Ana and Karenina " of the Sophie and Marceau edition. After everybody finds the love of she and Wo Lenski, she says: Yes, I am his mistress. I love him, you punish me. Passion that love each other it makes to be in all desperation such as the she, but she throws in the train wheel finally. Make her unique, it is the love, detested and rejected by the love, the love of detesting and rejecting too oneself.
The love is colder than to long for. It is simple to long for, the love is deep. It is a ninety percent discount slim and graceful interlude play to long for, the love but it is a brilliant and serious serious drama. And I, win on the life Zhai those appear play once only, the serious drama had begun now, I should withdraw too. But, where can I retreat?


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