Born in the eighties Very selfish _'s love clinic of the love

Born in the eighties Very selfish _'s love clinic of the love

The persons who pour out: Lin is poor ' Assumed name) ,Female, 22 years old, one company clerk in Jinan
The characters: Settle down
I and boyfriend Meng Chao ( Assumed name) Born in the eighties, as to the people born the eighties, a lot of books and periodicals magazines
Report the news, our psychology of analysis, canvass our attitude toward all respects such as the life, undertaking, emotion,etc. and view.
Meng Chao and I are both only sons, loved at home while as a child, the person who relatively has the distinction. We know in the campus, our school is in a city far from Jinan, we live actually not far when being in Jinan, but the alien land outside of thousand li realizes, Meng Chao and I both think this is fate that we two are destined.
The arrival of the love is only one in the twinkling of an eye, but it is a course of break-in for a long time to be in love. Until Meng exceed, go to, come from a very much little detail, to now at that time, already three years in love for us. Now, love pass by initial the intersection of happiness and issue already, contradiction between I and Meng exceed get more and more, more and more impatient each other. Other lovers are too so that I do not know whether it is or not, or we are not two most appropriate persons at all.
A heavy three that years one day, raining heavily, I went to the third floor of teaching to listen to elective course. The teacher has already begun lecturing, sit in the classroom fully while entering the classroom. It has a vacancy inside first boys that I see, go over, stand by the boy with delicate and pretty that feature.
Not waiting for me to open one's mouth yet, that boy stands up to let me go through, and take over the umbrella in my hand, put well. Until class is over, I and say a word between him, that kind let me feel he looked like an old friend of mine naturally, letting me produce the good opinion greatly to him tacitly between two people.
After class that day, I had a chat with that boy very naturally. He is Meng Chao, alumnus that and I am at the same level and different. That day, I and Meng surmount and have a chat about the more congenial, found later we were fellow-villagers in Jinan, and two are left not far.
Very naturally, I and Meng exceed getting togather, has become a pair of intimate lovers on the campus. I and Meng have tacit understanding very much exceed, at that time, read, ate, saw the film etc., a lot of things will be simultaneous. We have common views on the emotion - -And then feel that goes. Two people can't well get along unless feeling each other, not if feeling, and then train the emotion really. Perhaps the idea which the person that this was a majority too born in twenty times owns in common, relatively the up toing.
I think we pick up people that can put down, will not be stranded by feeling at least at emotion, the love loves carefully, will not like not pestering each other either. As for the course in love, there are no too many doubts even more, we will all make oneself very calmly, will go reluctant oneself and the other side for something.
In the school, the emotion of Meng Chao and I has been very good all the time, though we are contradictory, also quarrel and bicker, but there is not a mistake of sense of principle, shiver for a few days at most, the contradiction goes over. All of us to like, look through old people of account, the past goes over, it is uncertain to be too good before one's eyes, before where to have leisurely mood to consider?
However, the thing begins to change after I graduated and worked.
After graduation from university last year, I got back to Jinan of native place with Meng Chao, I found a good job, he has been admitted to the graduate student of a university of Jinan. We two are full of hoping to the future, think our future is sure to be very bright, two households are satisfied with Meng Chao and me, we who have since childhood plain sailing are calm on the emotion.
After the work, I mostly meet with Meng Chao on weekend, the telephone gets in touch with message at ordinary times. We live calm and serene year, look, seem any other things has not changed no, speak clearly what is the matter, I to feel unnatural, it seems the emotion between two people subside little by little, the tacit understanding that had once had has disappeared too.
Chao Meng say temper more and more large after I graduate, get angry towards him easily, I can it thinks to be he more and more impervious to reason, my living environment changes, handle affairs the way will be with changing too certainly. It is no longer the simple campus by me, but is a big company with complicated interpersonal relationships, some polite formulae and dinner parties are necessary sometimes. The change that Meng Chao who still lives in the school can not bear me, says I am more and more vulgar, the common languages with him are fewer and fewer, dislike me for not making allowances for his feeling, no longer show consideration for him gently as before.
I am very recalcitrant. I am so tired when going to work every day, how can be like having so much time to care about and show consideration for him while going to school? Besides, he is a man, it is not busy to pursue the master degree, why can not take more time to look after me? I that kind for love and sacrifice one's own old society woman in the family.
Unconsciously, estrangement between I and Meng exceed older and older, we stand at one's own view considering the issue too much, will only criticize the carelessness of the other side, oneself grievance that two people both think, think that should get more love and care by oneself.
Will it be the Spring Festival 2005, Chao Meng want, get the intersection of he and the intersection of classmate and family of Changchun play, make he discussed without discussing with me before the these decision. I am very angry, also want to take advantage of staying together with him well on vacation! We had had a row before he left, I said he did not make allowances for me, " you are too selfish! " He hates me being in charge of him too much, " I do not go to do evil, look for classmates' freedom? " In fact such a situation has already appeared a lot times, sometimes we can all quarrel in the message. I live very terribly in annual leave, mood is very bad, Meng Chao has not phoned me, there is not the message, I know he is waiting for me to apologize, in order to meet vanity of his male chauvinism. Quarrel in the past I can sue for peace voluntarily, it spreads piece to be delicate and all right, but I feel grievance that time, think he lets me not have sense of safety very much. Then, two people have irritated the air in one vacation.
Have other boy chase I after the work, I too can have a meal with them what does it sing sometimes, with ultra phone Meng or chat on the net, I reveal with other boys accidentally, he is very angry, say I do not behave oneself. I am very angry: "You I pay a friend won't do around? " I think I can not go wrong, they and I are only
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